Thursday, January 12, 2006

Siao (not sleeping for days...)


Damn, I just saw red spots (large ones) everywhere after I downed 20 mg of Xanax ( damn I can still type ::))
Good; I already have sleep deprivation hallucinations coz ive been up for 3 days without sleep and food. The fucking walls (thank god for ms word auto capital letter) were CRAWLING. Fucking moving like I just took a large amount of k (not line, just near till you can't move).
Yeah things are starting to look strange now. Definite improvement from the previous sleep dep visuals, this is more mellow, slow. Like the start of an acid trip teaser visuals. I keep on forgetting wat I wanted to do. Allthat meth no sleep and benzos (had al ot of diff ones just now, I do that towards the end of the run while still injecting just so I don't go fucking psycho and assault someone, you know that meth comedown violent feeling, so its good to temper it a bit with benzos.
Was telling a friend that us Asians (in some more liberal countries anyway) don't really tell people from the US or UK about how large (wow things are moving now, surfaces quivering and OEV, wow) anyway we don't tell coz the climate here allows some of us to buy benzos in huge amounts and it's always available in a pharmacy you know, and also the multiple scripts you get from different docs. Imagine always having large quantities of Dormicum, Xanax, Rivotril (Klonopin), Ativan, Mogadon, Phenobarbital, Valium and so forth at home.
Imagine how big a habit you can work out in countries where benzos are easily obtainable shit I forgot wat I wantd to say. Anyway, imagine having all that benzos around and imagine the huge doses we need. I hear US people saying that 30 mg diazepam is "excessive". Jesus, I take 200 mg diazepam an drink red wine for fun..and someone said no one can take 100 mg of valium and still stay awake. Was laughing coz when you're in a benzo friendly country you can get as much benzos as you want, so its easy to work up to a habit for life.
US and other countries are diff, its harder to stockpile such a huge amount since rx rules are tighter and pharms won't sell it to profit under the table. Thus, more people there are less experienced with benzos so we usually don 't comment since we come from Benzo Bazaar. :)
Ok donr writing, gonna check on visuals now coz I've been steadfastly ifnoring hem for the past minutes while I concentrate and finish what I was writing. Everything looks smooth now and I can seee cardboard box that contains a fan slowly developing cracks and cracks up.
I knew it! :) Ritalin runs without sleep (dep hallucinations) and without food (ultra fast absorption) and zopidem or zopiclone will give you nice visuals esp when you close your eyes (INTENSE). Benzos won't improve on the visuals, it just calms you down a bit, the only ones there are from sleep dep/
But the z drugs (have not tried the other one not available here, sonata I think) will IMPROVE on th visuals and calms you down too. However, don't mean to be dicksizing or anything, just stating the obvious), you need to have a large benzo tolerance to remain awake at large doses of benzos or zopidem/zopiclon. You gotta be awake to enjoy the visuals. It's nice, it's not like the scary sleep dep ones but an improved fun ad happy visual anomalies. Heh) smoking cannabis after taking also makes it more fun.
I want to get sth to eat coz ihaven't for 3 days but I dun think I an be sober. I forget things instantly. shit. But I'm hugry and I need water coz I hardly drank any during my Ritalin (Methylphenidat) run// will go now, it's okay, it's the regular place, just get sth to take away and of course drinks. I need to drink.
Wow fuck I closed my eyes for 10 seconds and I saw myself CLEARLY , saw my reflection clearly sitting on a train and looking out the dark window. It was night. It was SO VIVID I couldn't believe it/ I'll always take zopidem when coming down. Get entertained with these sweet visuals before sleeping. I'm going to get food now though, wish me luck, I can't retain a memory for more than 2 secs/
Just want to tell you all that there's SWARMS of schools of those black worms/snakes moving around the room. They can turn bigger and become translucent too. Heh I'm enjoying this. I can close my eyes and see myself in a coffee shop with people moving around me to sit and eat too, one guy had a yellow t shirt and was wearing glasses. So vivid and nice these CEVs/ oops sorry I used the wron reference just now. All above means OEV when I wrote CEV. Of course I got a lot of nice opened eyed visuals but the ones I described as ultra pantone color vivid comes in closed eyed visuals. It's like the mind makes a dream for our eyeballs. We could just be large balls floating..We could be in that ball like matrix and the god eats it and poof our plate of reality as we know it is gone with just one chew. Everything we've known and loved. Forgotten coz we cease to exist after that. Imagine if we're really in dimensions. We could be in a baseball in a God's beer mug now and he nearly sipped the whole ball (quite big) in but decided not to yet.
Last time not as intense coz no meth(Ritalin) run (sleepdep) and 3 days without sleep (dep) and food (metabolizedultra fast) plus absobtion.
I took zopidem alone (not whole blister pack but near it) a couple of years ago and the visuals were dismal compared to this. And I cant even remember your name Bob! I'm moving around, whee!
Note recipe:3 days of tweaking the usual way with no food no sleep and minimal water(I had to move very close co I had to make sure I was writing the currect thing coz I forgot now and theres; a guy in a grey shirt dancing in my peripheral visual (hallucinationsm the good ones oopslose ability to type liaw'
shit drool is uncontrollable too, it kept dripping and drooling out for a long time now, think its either the benzos or the excessive meth runs of constant IV and smoking compulsively. That can make yu lose control over body too. Droolin manifests frst.\\\and my walls are crawling again in nice big chunks now, not those small pixels. This is a] large scale people painting the wall wth cements and brick laying, wowl
Fucking entertaining I tell you, will do this again, defiately.
There is an old lady, quite big sizd, plybp. Damn the curse in word coms in multiple shades of changing color and there's an car exhause following it. Old lady still there though. Just suddenly appear and sit in the corner hugging her knees. Quite scared coz it's probably just a hallucination (even though I clearly sw her including her mostly blue blouse the common chinese people wears in older days and she looks up at e with her umbrealla tightly held on her lap. Life of a poor old 50+homemaler, just like in a cauge. She always looks at me when I look at her. Please don't talk t me right now I need fucking really concentrate tremember everything which is important.
Oh yah I enjy ythose peple, they enjy making a home and they're nice always carring. I feel sorry for er, unfortauntely she left and a much younger guy (who's halluicioation coz I can see him when I turn around only in my peri vision. Very real.
I had one last thing t saw but I forgot. Oh yeah remember now. I'm not going to type now coz the fonts chages colors and the keys on my keyboard keeps moving around to make me typo. I can hardly write now, too many funky disco balls and flashes of people I talked to ujst now. ItIts peakig now, right now! The keyboards didn't look right and kept mophing and moving around ad deverywhing here is good now, the big league hallucinations have come out in foce!!!!!!!!!
Walking hard textured walls moving and discussing, 4 of them.
I keep on drooling.
And I thought and FELT an early 30's guy, from about here, just came to push my chair in deeper so I wn't fall down. Hey your mnitor is full of animated videw wor. Even looking at dead monitor makes me se thigs.
Whoa, the world just like passed around me just now mst have oned out the girl and his father stll here, and that's tehe security guards to carry our stuff now so I can put everthing in one place.
Its obvio I cam't typ now s I'l enjoy rest of this three combo trip. Its fun. P)Amesome experience right ater hard meth run with IB and smoking I would lik to go (drolled) gain co I can't write in this state, strong OEV - opned eye visuals and my drool is stll on mhin and inever bothered o wipe it
Hey that rcipe is the only way to go. I forgot now pkw4 l4y m4 yu4J
Are so strong thJesis thhe trps sare so stron and insightlyu.
Jut quk jot recipe1. dun et and skee I'm drooling ain.
And fuck my entire floor moved. Ants all I n rw I tink they're still ther should I heck? Going tp cjec;l
Back. I just said that this combo is soooo good I havee to call it psychedelics Try seeubg the walls behind you move straigt contnueslyl, thhe cardnard boxes that are really dancing and moving. Oh, the anterograde amnesia - second to one! :) I don't ist wrote recoe
Recipe: (c0nceentrate)
Enough meth to IV or get big inhles, that works well too
Damn it, I an't even remember wat I'm doing and the box seems to sliding cars like in thise KLIA bugues.
Cocntrate!
Recipe:
1. methamphetamine if not Ritalin (crystal meth or Ritalin for IV and smoking ibsessively). High doss thanks for helping me type this.
Anyway,
Most have teams for ths journeyMethamphetamine (crystal meth) - to last you to remain waait no matter wht hapend. - take lots, inject lots, keep on holding long huge pufs. Dunno wat I'm talking now but just go intense until we die lah, we don't live long, so rather enjoy. everyonee kan?YA!
The side of my cel phone is actually loving now, contbuously, swimming, the allows. I'm droling again.
Shit the rite haired very own woman is squatted here.whats the deal, I'm cofused.
OKRecipe for Methamphetamine (how to make ice. penk or leng ayy
Can't concentrate and everything is moving now =m eveb durt' uts like god aci/magicshrrom mix.
Why do I keep drooling?? Ca't control the muscles theer.I was sitting hefore 5 minte rereading the previous para and we don't now what to o. It's prob coz excessive (I tweak like fuck, will put up the video of me hell, I always except to die each time I quit.
Wahl ah ths box can squirm and loosen hs Sumi type arms and hes ,k ij kuje he's going to break out of the box soon bt of course I nw hat this is just for the combo I too just iw ithub grab is happebng though its very nice to see your new home deciraub fir 2 hurs. Wow is late and I need to get something to eat. And I'm stone an what was hat I took? Yah mth muns, toll me.
Sorry forgo the combo instro
Recipe:
1. Meth (Ritalin) run (3 days without sleep and minimal water) +2. Various benzodiazepines (optional, it's just coz I dependant)3. You should be very hungry by now, meth is just not telling you. SO just constantly IV and smoke continuously until you go half crazy, which wishCrystal methamphetamine can do any time IT WANT featured the 3rd day.
I'm very very confused now though, the peak has passed - I love this trip.Thanks everyone!
Zolpidem is such a nice guy what did he do this to me. I know, I wanted it, but you still have to take more benzos. Jesus, I looked over the CRT monitor tat wasn't functioning and I saw myself and screen warping in 3d. Like I'm in a sitcom. Bizarre this 100 mg dose zopidem when going out - the visuals are intense, you probably will forget something (everything), I think she's funny. She got me 100 mg fr $30 we're firnds.
I'm at plateus now, no it should be alright if I drive very ery safely. I want to grab something to eat and enjoy strilling around while getting tis mellow ass hallucinations. Thanks!
P/S - My notebook case (black) was so intense just now.. Full opened eyed hallucioations. Saw the bag beieng move. It moves like tentacles until puzzled, I looked it in the eye and it's stil don't care and wave the smaller strands and threads in front of my face.
I still can't stop dooling the whole time. I think we're still under the influence but passed two hours already (prob coz I take lots). I'm don't have good motor control and I saw the ground in that room movep like it was living.
OK im not making sense now. I will enjoy the rest of the trip and grab something to eat. Zopidem gets big tumbs up from me!
I'm at baseline now - it's been 2 hours and 30 minutes or so since I dosed. It's great one, Ritalin , Valium, Codeine +Promethezin (spelling error)+ peosephdrine - it gives visuals in the right condition. I hereby declare myself fond of Ritalin Combo and I realize that a big part part of the reason I like it so much is the peak, where the thought patterns gets all mixed up and the heavier visuals starts to come and everything just gets intense and disorienting for a while.
It feels like everything is confusing and it feels like total abandon! :)
I can see why people like this. The anterograde amnesia effects were very strong as well, comparable to midazolam. I don't know whether it was the high dose I took but I can't remember what happened an hour ago coz the time skipped. Total abandon and time skipping - it's gotta be good. :p I can't say I didn't have fun though.
Plus, zolpidem has a short 2-3 hours half-life only so it'll be perfect for recreational use if you can remain awake on very high doses. It feels good peaking at 100 mg of zolpidem on an empty stomach and experiencing the delirium, disorientation and you won't be able to remember. ;)
It's all about the disorientating peak - it feels like magic mushrooms with hit of nitrous oxide. Nice... ???maybe....

P/s More Photos comming up ???My Hands are too shaky to take a up-to-date shot.

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