Friday, June 20, 2008

It`s going to be 3am and I am still awake !

I am still awake at this time. So I decided to take some pictures of my home where I hang aboult when I am not asleep.This is the dinning room and hall of my apartment I stay .(crapy ya)
and this is the kitchen where the food is being prepared. I try to find some instant noodles to cook but I could not find one!! :(
There are other parts of the home but my Dad and sister is sleeping...zzzzzzzzz(will show another time)
Personal Note: The house is kind of messy due to me..hee hee hee

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

I am so bord (up dated)

A Pfizer notebook and a pen what a combination

I really have nothing to blog about so I decided to take A picture of myself with my web cam.

Looks silly right?? That's what I am. So I decided to do and see the Doctor for some
benzodiazepins .I decided to chose Alprazolam (xanax)to chill out.

A Photo of the blister pack by Pfizer
The 0.5mg strength is all that they have.So have to make do. Anyway it is only SGD$5.00 a pill

The expiry date and the MFG date is clearly inprint on the pack.(Good
quality control ! :)
This is what is written on the tablet.(UPJOHN 55) 55??????? Ok I will be happy after consuming the pills.

Friday, June 13, 2008

I will miss you Eugenia

I know you will be getting married soon.I will reall miss you and try not to make trouble for the home ok!! I love you my Sister

Thursday, June 12, 2008



It is so dam sad to see a person with an addictive nature. He is a degree holder with computer sales. It`s a waste.

Sunday, June 08, 2008


I have been very psychology drain these few weeks and decided to go to the library to do some reading.(sound insane yea) There is where I met my neighbor who's name also is the same as mine.He is really a nice chap . Friendly,helpful and fun loving.
Anyway he told me about his idea of traveling to Aus to study. Anyway all the best to you my friend.

Saturday, June 07, 2008

A Simple composion called the Battle


I compose this piece last year, when I was intoxicated. I is a very simple piece to play but I can`t get to finish it due to time laps .(I could`t finish the piece by the time I have to go for my work)

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

My Family

This is a photo of my family. I will aways cherish........till I die

AM I going crazy??

A Poem by me called Frozen Snow
Drugs are bad, mmm-kay
Is what all the people say,
And I must agree with them at least
Due to my hangover today.
But quite a few of my aquaintances,
Seemed to never sleep,
I wondered why and had no clue
Until I found out this week.
They gather in the lounge,
And sit around a pipe
And smoke this ... called meth
I think some may call it ice.
This ... is completly crazy,
They feed their dealers greed,
And in their paranoid confusion,
They scratch until they bleed.
Their faces are so stunning,
The most gorgeous girls you'll ever see,
But ice has warped their perception,
And they've lost reality.
They live their lives in fear of exposion,
But its not a secret, if only they knew,
With the paranoid behaviour
Its obvious what they do.
Their intelligence will be ruined,
If they could see inside their heads,
They would see the internal damage,
And this erosion will surely spread.
Please see what you are doing,
Forget about your pride,
From this chemical concoction,
Do you realise how many have died?
I know its an epidemic,
I realise its a common thing,
I understand even lawyers smoke this stuff,
Anything to stop them from sleeping.
Just don't let your lives be taken,
Don't let the dealers win,
Fight the addictive urges,
Try confront it from within.
I really hope this is just a faze,
For their own sake alone,
Before they lose their brains, money and looks,
Dont let the wind turn into a cyclone.

BY:Rachel May

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Snipers in action (Taken from the movie BLACK HALK DOWN)

Me In Streets and acting disorderly


This is another video of me behaving disorderly and smocking........???


Shit I nearly got smash! By a vehicle as I was too intoxicated .

P/S There is so many 'Weed' like substance you can buy and this is a good example !

Saturday, May 17, 2008


The picture of the mixture I got from a doctor.
This is a bottle of mixture meant for dry cough . I bought it from a place I shall not name for abuse prevention. It contains it contains a combination of Codeine Phosphate , Promethazine and ephedrine . Codeine as one know is a syntactic Opiate base chemical. When Codeine is consume the brain will than metabolize part of it into Morphine. When C.N.S Stimulants are taken or mix with Codeine like Ephedrine (A base of Amphetamine) It Stimulates the (C.N.S ) Central nervures system or Brain to work harder to metabolize more of the Codeine that were consume into Morphine ! That will in turn take a toll to the brain causing brain damage. Anyway I myself is struggling with this cocktail thing. In the long run when this is taken one will have psychotic symptoms like hearing voices , paranoia ect…..If I am not wrong PHENSEDYL is ban in Bangladesh. Please read it at

the back of the bottle
A video of me drinking the “mixture”

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

A lazy afternoon

I was out today alone because all my friends were working. so I decided to go shopping myself.It was boring though but I still enjoyed it. In the end I ended up playing games at the game arcaded . Want a shameful day it was.

A short video aboult me


Made a mistake it was not US $60 to 70 Dollars but SGD$40 to 50 dollars .Sorry for that mistake.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Waiting for my "Wife"

I am typing this wile I am waiting for my turn to see the doctor. I really need XANAX because it helps me in my depressive episodes that I have when things go wrong. I have to admit that I am a very venerable person that takes things to heart. It has been 15 mins already and I am waiting for my benzodiazepines . I know addiction is a mental illness.....well(thats what the Doctor says) and I had to be put on anti-depressive medication . I feel there is still a stigma in Asian country and where mental illness is being neglected.
I really hope it's my turn to see the doctor now

PS:/More pictures of my `collection" comming up!

Monday, May 12, 2008

The memory's of Pho Huai Bin




I really feel that he is a great blogger but sad to say he has stop blogging.You can still find his post at (wayback Machine) But sad to say this is what Drugs can do to a person.